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I'm a 36yr old, wife, wannabe mom, horticulturalist, halfass knitter, and sometimes runner, searching for my grace

Wednesday, January 27, 2010


I've had a blog post rolling around my head for a while, but when I start to write, it feels incoherent. Maybe bulleted points would be better

1. weight watchers:
I've been doing ww for 3 months and I've lost 8 pounds w/o being really serious about it. My mom and aunt are doing it too, and have lost lots of weight. I really want lost 10 pounds before we TTC again and before I turn 35 in March. So I'm really trying and I am REALLY hungry. Cookies are constantly calling my name and begging me to eat them.

2. drinking:
I am trying to give up drinking for 30 days, b/c
a. the points it adds up to on ww.
b. I feel like I've been drinking too much, well not really too much but more often than I should for my waistline and my pocket book.

3. running:
I ran a half marathon a few weeks ago, in the freezing cold and it sucked major monkey balls. My time was so incredibly slow. At mile 7 I realized I needed to poop and thought about jumping in the woods, but then thought maybe it will go away...it didn't. At mile 9 I was getting very desperate and thinking about what to do. We were in some residential neighborhood and I saw a man come out of his house in his pajamas and start his car to warm it up. I asked if I could please use his bathroom, and he graciously let me in. I'm sure my face was showing all sorts of desperation. So thank you kind man in Florence SC for letting me poo in your bathroom and not have an accident in my pants. By the time I slogged through miles 10 and 11 my legs decided to go on strike and the last two miles were hideous. but I finished and did not poop my pants so good race for me.

4. RPL/IF:
The potential cost for treatments with IVIG or intralipids has caused a few arguments in our house. The last blood tests were taken yesterday and hopefully in two weeks we will have a fully laid out plan. My cycle has been really off since the last miscarriage. I'm averaging 35 day cycles ovulating on day 23 or 24 so only a 11-12 day luteal phase sometimes as short as 10 days. I'm hoping my vitamin D supplement will help sort it out. Often I sit on the fence about whether this is worth it? Mel had a great post about it "Was it worth it?" and truly it is a question I think about every day. I hope and pray that it is. In many ways this has become more about me kicking the shit out of RPL rather than having a baby. So I really have to ask myself these hard questions. I'm not sure what the answers are but I'm doing a lot of soul searching.

5. Car Drama:
On the way back from the blood work Tuesday morning a big rock flew out from an oncoming semi and hit my windshield. So today I am spending the day at the library waiting for my car to get a new windshield. Yay!

So there are my bulleted points, there was probably more rolling in my head but it has since left, also I had a double latte at 8:30 and I am still shaking at noon.


Grad3 said...

Glad there weren't literal bullets :) To join in the fun...

-Why does jogging make you want poop? I never understood it though it happened to me and a friend a lot ;)
-Congrats on the marathon, still an accomplishment!
-RPL? Totally get it...
-Boo on the car
-Cookies are my serious weakness too

Panamahat said...

Woot! on the weight loss, and a big congrats on the marathon - I could NEVER in a million years do one myself. I'm sure you've earned a cookie....

Fertility Chick said...

Congrats on the weightloss and the marathon! That's amazing! I've joined and ahem re-joined Weight Watchers far too many times than I can count. Cookies call me a lot. As does chocolate, candy, chips, and wine. I need a swift kick in the ass in that department.

You are amazing!

Stacey said...

I cannot believe you were brave enough to ask to use that guy's bathroom! Wow! :)

Hey, that's really great about the weight loss. Nice job!

Last but not least, I sincerely hope you will be able to beat RPL. It's such an awful thing to live with and it seriously makes my day when I can see someone overcome it. I'm pulling for you.

Andie said...

I definitely understand what you mean about kicking RPL to the curb. It becomes all about the battle to beat it. It is such a horrible place to be in.

Congrats on the run and good luck with your weight loss program.

I am just starting to look in to the use of IUI or natural cycles + intralipids. LIke you, I am not keen on IVF. Maybe that is an option for you?

like.a.gown said...

I love your running story. A man in PJ's, right on.

Grad3 said...

just wanted to say I was thinking of you... hugs