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Thursday, January 8, 2009

MFM

Today I had my preconception consultation with my new MFM. It went well she is very positive and reassuring. She differs from my RE in that she wants me start Lovenox as soon as I get a BFP. My RE said start Lovenox when we see a gestational sac. She also wants me to start baby aspirin right away. I had to go through my torrid past and hand over my gigantic file to the nurse. I only cried a little and she teared up too. So now here I am standing on the edge of the high dive again about to jump in. All those butterflies in my stomach and fears about what will happen are sitting in my throat. I know we are prepared. I have my towel, my goggles, nose plug and ear plugs and water wings. I'm still scared. Because this is it. I cannot keep losing babies. If this one doesn't work out I'm done. That's scary too. So the plan is take BCP for this cycle, next cycle take Femara, but use protection so I don't get knocked up and see if I can ovulate earlier than CD19. Then in March it's game on. So today I climbed the ladder and looked down at the water, but I think I need to run around the pool a few times to get my courage up.

27 comments:

Grad3 said...

I will cheer you on as you take your last laps before climbing that terribly high ladder. ~Hugs~

Kara said...

Happy and good thoughts sent your way, from me to you.

This is a very exciting time for you.

Meg said...

You sound very ready for this. Emotionally, I do not think we are ever ready for what lies ahead. Especially considering all that you have been through...

Your new doc office sounds committed and really invested in you on this journey too.

I will follow closely!!

In Due Time said...

Your new doctor sounds helpful. Many prayers and well wishes for you in 09.

ICLW

eyeheartinternet said...

Here from ICLW, getting ready as well to jup back in the pool after a year on dry land... wishing you all the best !

awakeintheworld said...

Good luck and do something nice for yourself every day. Your MFM sounds wonderful.

Thanks for visiting my blog. (ICLW)

Beautiful Mess said...

We may not know each other, but I'll run with you around the pool. Your new Dr. sounds prepared and that's a good thing. I'm sending you lots of luck and hugs!
D *ICLW*

Soralis said...

Good luck. Thick files stink! Hope you can close yours soon! Hugs

ICLW

SheWoreScarletBegonias said...

Hi, dropping in from ICLW. I just wanted to say HI and wish you lots of luck as you "jump" back in. I have been on a break myself, and will be jumping back in the pool myself. Its a scary step, but its what we need to do to get us through our journey to motherhood.

Best Wishes!

Kristin said...

Best of luck Amylynn. I know how hard it can be because I have also lost multiple babies. {{{Hugs}}} and prayers for you.

ICLW

~Jess said...

Good luck! It is scary, especially when you know that it's the "last shot". I hope this is it for you!

*hugs* Good luck!

ICLW

N said...

Scary, definitely. But I hope the new doctor is right on track.


ICLW

Cara said...

Wow! That's quite a plan. Looking down at the water is a big step. Cheering wildly from ILCW.

Princess Jo said...

That first leap is always the hardest.

May you find strength, compassion, and hope while you run your last few laps.

Jo
ICLW

notsofertilemyrtle said...

You can do it! Keep your eyes on the prize.

ICLW

the Babychaser: said...

Sometimes, when you look back, aren't you amazed at what you've survived so far?

You can do this. You'd be nuts not to be scared, but I know you'll take the plunge when you have to.

Good luck! ICLW

P.S. My file at the RE's office is ridiculous. It's too big for the folder, and is falling apart from age, size, and overuse. I've become quite fond of it.

Valerie said...

Good luck to you.

ICLW

GINA and KEV said...

The best of luck to you. You can do this!

ICLW

Anita said...

Good luck-I wish you all the best with your new doctor!
ICLW

Cassandra said...

Positive and reassuring are good qualities in a doc when we're feeling fragile. Hope that your dip in the pool goes swimmingly.

Happy ICLW!

Panamahat said...

Practising lots of deep breaths before you jump in the pool will help when the time comes. I'm wishing you 100% easy success.

I'd love for you to be holding your newborn while YOU give ME some assvice about jumping back in that pool this time next year!

Hillary said...

I'm cheering for you as you get ready to dive in!

(here from ICLW)
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Michelle said...

Sending you nothing but good thoughts! I know its scary but also a little bit exciting?

Tarahville said...

Your new Dr. sounds great! I'm cheering you on from the sidelines!!

Can't wait to see your BFP post. :)

ICLW

Andrea said...

Good luck, sweetie!! Hoping for a very sticky BFP!!

ICLW

Melissa said...

Thinking of you. It sounds like it will be scary, but exciting!! Wishing you all the best, praying you O before cd 19 :)

ICLW

daega99 said...

All the best as you get back into it!

*ICLW 66*