Tomorrow at 9:30 I have my ultrasound. So things could go well or go down the shitter. I have no idea which way it will go. I do know either way I will live. My mom insisted on coming up to go with me to the appointment. I planned to go by myself, but she was not having it, and I have learned it's easier just to let her have her way. My DH is off fighting a fire and will be gone for 9 more days. Oddly I don't mind going to these things by myself, in fact if the news is bad I can just cry myself. It feels a hundred times more painful when I see the look of sadness and desperation on the face of someone I love. I instantly feel that I need to be strong so that person won't feel so sad. If I am by myself I can just be sad. I know this is depressing.
I am taking the prometrium and my herbs from my acupuncturist M. Yesterday she said my kidney pulse was good. I don't know what that means but she seemed really pleased.
Ok I have to pull myself out of these deep thoughts and focus on the tasks at hand. I need to finish my mid year reports and my end of the month reports. Ok think like a worker bee.