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I'm a 36yr old, wife, wannabe mom, horticulturalist, halfass knitter, and sometimes runner, searching for my grace

Thursday, June 26, 2008

tomorrow...

Tomorrow at 9:30 I have my ultrasound. So things could go well or go down the shitter. I have no idea which way it will go. I do know either way I will live. My mom insisted on coming up to go with me to the appointment. I planned to go by myself, but she was not having it, and I have learned it's easier just to let her have her way. My DH is off fighting a fire and will be gone for 9 more days. Oddly I don't mind going to these things by myself, in fact if the news is bad I can just cry myself. It feels a hundred times more painful when I see the look of sadness and desperation on the face of someone I love. I instantly feel that I need to be strong so that person won't feel so sad. If I am by myself I can just be sad. I know this is depressing.

I am taking the prometrium and my herbs from my acupuncturist M. Yesterday she said my kidney pulse was good. I don't know what that means but she seemed really pleased.

Ok I have to pull myself out of these deep thoughts and focus on the tasks at hand. I need to finish my mid year reports and my end of the month reports. Ok think like a worker bee.

3 comments:

Meg said...

good luck tomorrow. hope is goes really well and you have wonderful news.

admin said...

good luck today. ugh, ultrasound anxiety has got to be the worst! you'll get through it.

Thinking about you and wishing for the very, very best of news.

Mel said...

I am thinking the very best for you today and hoping for a wonderful ultrasound.
*hugs*