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I'm a 36yr old, wife, wannabe mom, horticulturalist, halfass knitter, and sometimes runner, searching for my grace

Monday, May 5, 2008

aftermath

I decided to have the D&C, my OB performed the surgery on Friday, she worked me in, so I would not have to wait a long time. One thing about my ob is that she is wonderful, she always remembers who I am, and I have only seen her twice. She has the courtesy to read up on my chart before speaking to me, so I don't have to rehash all my misfortunes. I absolutely love her. For once I feel I have a doctor who actually cares about me. The bad part is that she is not an RE, and so does not feel comfortable prescribing meds for infertility. My RE said we can do more clomid at higher dosage or be aggressive and go with injectibles. I feel like I am on the edge of falling apart. If I didn't have to deal with people on my job I might make it through. We do have a vacation planned for later this week to go to the outer banks for five days. I am looking forward to laying on the beach and reading books while my dh fishes. After discussing my options with my counselor bff Dr. G, I decided I would try again, but if I have another miscarriage I am taking an extended break. She says this gives me a boundary. I love Dr. G. She has been my best friend since 5th grade and just finished her PhD. in counseling. She is so good at giving advice as a counselor and as a friend. So now my question is how agressive do I approach this next cycle. The docs feel this miscarriage had nothing to do with my septum, and was most likely chromosomal. I have had two normal chromosomal miscarriages already though. I am convinced that my problem is a LPD, but no doctor will agree with me. If I take higher dosages of clomid it should help me ovulate sooner in my cycle instead of the cd21 like I usually do. But clomid can cause the uterine lining to be thinner, so would injectibles be a better bet? But then I don't know. My goal is to make it through the next three days without crying at work. wish me luck...

5 comments:

JJ said...

Wishing you luck...and thinking of you!

Anonymous said...

Good luck.
And I'm so so sorry for your loss. I will be thinking about you.

Meg said...

Oh I am just so sorry. I am glad that you were able to get the D&C done sooner than later. Your doctor sounds fabulous and some relaxation at the beach sounds like just the thing you should do. I agree that having boundaries is a good thing, especially with the uncontrollable and unpredictable experience you have with trying to start your family. Hugs....

Hope2morrow said...

Depending on insurance and if they pay, I would go with the injectibles! If insurance doesn't pay, stick with Clomid to reduce costs. I have heard Clomid causes the lining to thin...

Saw your bog today and will keep reading because your history is similar to mine!

admin said...

Just wondering how you are doing and letting you know that I have been thing about you.
{{hugs}}
Meredith