ramping up

So each cycle on Femara my cycle is getting longer, back to my normal 31 days. Does this mean the Femara is not doing the job it should, making me ovulate sooner in my cycle? I put a call in to my RE to ask this question. I wonder if we need to up my dosage. My fertility monitor comes today, so maybe this will help me with the mystery of when do I actually ovulate. We're taking it to the next level this cycle.

BFN

cd 28 11dpo, BFN. I just dropped over a $100 on a clear blue fertility monitor. It should arrive Monday. I'm wondering what the deal is. Maybe we have other issues now. AF will most likely make her appearance today or tomorrow. I stopped the prometrium on Tuesday. My RE says one more cycle with the Femara if no BFP then we look at other options. I am applying for my retired boss's job, and it's been very stressful at work. So I guess I should be more patient.

cd25

Welcome back to the POAS challenge.... Today's results BFN

Can she hold out until Thursday to do it again? Only time will tell.

Lather Rinse Repeat

So here we are again, ovulation week, hot sex all week long right.... RPL certainly fucks with your sex life. Because sex=baby=death and destruction by the shithead ute. You try to push those sad memories away and remember a time when sex was sex or even making love.

I'm carrying a OPK stick in my purse, b/c I have to work late and the directions say to test at the same time each day. I'm not sure why I continue to waste money on these bitches, but I do.

Dr. P my RE said repeat last cycle with Femara days 3-7 and Prometrium 3dpo. So off we go. Today is cd 11.

Lately I have thought more and more about what life would be like if we don't have kids. Like I could train for the marathon at the Outer Banks, and we could spend money on traveling and landscaping. I spend a lot of time thinking about the future instead of living the life in front of me. I meant to stop doing that. I think what I want to do is plan with reckless abandon, instead of thinking well I might pregnant so that wouldn't work.

I decided not to visit my brother and his new baby this weekend. I'm not emotionally ready and I should be ovulating. My brother seemed to understand, but I haven't told my mom yet.