So this week my obsession has been learning about incompetent cervix's and how to determine if you need a cervical cerclage or a stitched up cervix. My cervix has been manually dilated five time in two years. Writing that makes me envision a doctor just turning a dial in your vagina. But it is much more involved than that and it hurts like a mofo. The two times I was conscious during it I thought I was going to die. So anyway because the doctors have messed with my cervix so much it could potentially be weakened. Dr. Google tells me they don't usually do a cerclage unless you have had a 2nd trimester m/c previously. But my glorious friends on the MA board say I should definitely have mine checked out b/c it could be a problem. So tomorrow at my u/s I plan to ask Dr.S the ultrasound lady to measure my cervix and let me know what she thinks. My OB Dr. F is too busy doing surgery's to mess with me. My appointment next week with the "nurse educator". When I asked the glib little scheduler why I was meeting with the "nurse educator", she said she (the nurse educator) would take all my information and history and then determine which doctor I should see. I said but I am already Dr. F's patient, she said that's the way they do new OB patients, and with my history I may be placed with the "high risk" doctor.
Hello why are they doing this now? How am I new since I've been seeing her since October? And does it take a fifth miscarriage to suddenly make me high risk? WTF?
So far no spotting or cramping. My boobs are sore and I am tired and sometimes I feel a little nausea but no puking. My face is breaking out like crazy.
Dear God- Please let my baby still be there with a beating heart tomorrow, and growing like it should be. I'm trying my best to be calm and give my worries to you b/c I know you will take care of things.