Beta # 2

After calling my RE office 4 times, I found out the hospital didn't fax my results over, So one quick call to the lab and the results are in

Beta #2: 631 at 18 dpo

Today I go to my MFM to learn how to give myself the lovenox injections. I have an appointment for my first ultrasound July 13.

It has almost been a full year since my last miscarriage. I thought I would be better prepared this go around, not so much.. I have sudden surges of anxiety where I feel like I might burst into tears and then it passes. I hate this waiting to find out if it's viable or not. I cannot bear to see another empty sac, and then if there is a heartbeat, there is a whole other set of fears. Sometimes I wish I could be knocked out and hooked up to an IV for the next 3 weeks. I'm a little scared of the lovenox injections. Just the needles and bruising. I tried to watch a video on how to do it and I almost threw up.

beta #1

I had my blood test yesterday and this morning I called to find out the results. First the nurse told me it was negative. I said, really because I took another home test this morning and it was positive. In fact it was more positive than the test I took yesterday. I said I know I sound crazy but I have taken like six tests and they were all positive. The nurse said you're not crazy everybody takes lots of tests. Let me have the dr. look at this and I will call you back. Just as I hung up she called again and said sorry for the scare it is positive. Sheesh....

Beta #1: 111.4

Beta #2 will be taken on Monday morning. Thank goodness my pack on internet tests that I ordered last week arrived today, so I can POAS with reckless abandon all weekend long... just kidding sortof.

need advice

Apparently it was just spotting, because no more blood since yesterday afternoon. I tested again this morning and it was positive darker than yesterday but still not a bright pink line. The tests I used up yesterday were Internet tests and this morning I used a FREP test. Does that make a difference? I broke down and called the RE office this morning and left a message. Should I request the blood test, or just wait and few more days and test again? If this is a chemical pregnancy how long till I get a negative test? Should I keep taking the progesterone just in case and if I do will that just prolong AF? For the first time in a long time I felt that old anxiety on the way to work. I didn't run this morning, and I think my body has been using running as a surrogate antidepressant without me realizing it.

Trying hard not to get worked up about this, what will be will be...

addendum: first positive on 12dpo, second 13 dpo, today is 14dpo with positive FREP