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I'm a 36yr old, wife, wannabe mom, horticulturalist, halfass knitter, and sometimes runner, searching for my grace

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

can't take it

I can't take much more of this. I feel like I am held together with dried out duct tape and string and the slightest misstep will cause me to crumble.

Tomorrow I fly to Chicago. Dr. C will do an ultrasound with her super fancy machines and if we still have a fetus with a heartbeat I will have another round of intralipid therapy. My blood results were all good and normal, but because of my wretched history Dr. C did not want to take any chances and recommended another infusion.

I am scared, anxious, tearful, jumping from hopeful to doom and gloom every two minutes.


Sue said...

You're doing everything you can - I just wish there was some way to make the waiting something other than excruciating. Fingers crossed everything looks good on the ultrasound today.

Good Timing said...

Praying and hoping for you! Try to hang in there as best as you can.

JJ said...

Wish I could fly there with you...Im crossing my fingers and sending you so many good thoughts!

Illanare said...

Thinking of you.

Panamahat said...

Hoping your Chicago trip went well. Post soon. xx