I am worried I am pregnant again. I have taken 4 tests all negative, but it's cd32 and still no period. Shit...
My RE Dr. P wants to look at uterus again. Because maybe it's changed since the last time he looked at it? Another SHG for me yippee!! He said no to the immune testing.
I have a phone consultation with SIRM next week.
I am carrying around this grief in my heart, that makes me lay awake at night wondering if my heart will stop beating. Nothing takes the ache away. I know I am depressed and should seek therapy again. The thing is I don't want to talk about it. It hurts too much to speak, and it is easier to push it away. Although I know this is not healthy it's the best I can do for now.
About Me
- amylynn
- North Carolina, United States
- I'm a 36yr old, wife, wannabe mom, horticulturalist, halfass knitter, and sometimes runner, searching for my grace
2 comments:
I am glad to hear that you have made contact with SIRM. I hope that the appt. leaves you with hope.
Do what you need to do right now- you will change things when you are ready. Now just isn't right for and that's okay. As far as the pg thing... been there and 'shit' sums it up nicely. I hope that the next few days brings the news you desire. ~Warm Hugs~
Just want you to know I am thinking of you. You will know when you are ready to talk through some of this. Just pace yourself and allow yourself to grieve and fall a little.
I hope you get AF soon.
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