After calling my RE office 4 times, I found out the hospital didn't fax my results over, So one quick call to the lab and the results are in
Beta #2: 631 at 18 dpo
Today I go to my MFM to learn how to give myself the lovenox injections. I have an appointment for my first ultrasound July 13.
It has almost been a full year since my last miscarriage. I thought I would be better prepared this go around, not so much.. I have sudden surges of anxiety where I feel like I might burst into tears and then it passes. I hate this waiting to find out if it's viable or not. I cannot bear to see another empty sac, and then if there is a heartbeat, there is a whole other set of fears. Sometimes I wish I could be knocked out and hooked up to an IV for the next 3 weeks. I'm a little scared of the lovenox injections. Just the needles and bruising. I tried to watch a video on how to do it and I almost threw up.
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- amylynn
- North Carolina, United States
- I'm a 36yr old, wife, wannabe mom, horticulturalist, halfass knitter, and sometimes runner, searching for my grace
5 comments:
I can relate to this post so much. I got pregnant right about a year after my last miscarriage and the waiting, giving up control and sheer huge amount of hope all mixed together was really hard to get through....
All I was able to do was thank the universe each night I was still pregnant and hope each morning for another healthy day.
You have incredible numbers and I am holding so much hope for you!
Check out this link to type in your hcg's... your #'s look great!!
http://grunebaum.com/tools/hcg_calculator
PS- put a cold ice pack on your belly for 15minutes before injecting. If you don't, you'll bruise badly and you'll feel the burn:-( It really gets routine:-)
That is a fantastic beta- seriously fantastic!
I have been burned by numbers before so I know how hard it is to trust them, just try to keep faith. Or grab the chocolate bar next to you, whatever is easiest ;)
I do the Lovenox too- not gonna lie it stings but you'll get used too it. Thee bruising... sometimes bad sometimes not but!! You can do this... ~Big Hugs~
Praying for you in these next few weeks. I know those early waiting days are so miserable when you have a history of loss. ((HUGS))
I'm with Hillary - the ice really does help with the pain, but I did still have a nasty bruise.
Thinking of you.
Wow, in my last comment I sounded like I was drunk! (yikes...)
Wanted to say, I know what you mean about not wanting to see an empty sac. I won't look at the screen until there is a hb and try to not figure out the EDD until 10ish weeks. Don't be afraid to tell them what you want- you aren't a typical patient!
Hang in there and I am waiting with you until the 13th! Hope you are feeling like crap :)
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